When it happens...

When it happens, you KNOW that it has happened. Its existence is no more in the realm of speculation. It now is a fact, a truth, a reality that will stay with you as long as you shall live. It is indelible, no matter how much you want the world to forget it. Even if they might, you, for sure, cant. You can only try avoiding, but the successes will be short-lived.

For some time, you’ll hope that it’s all a bad dream and something or someone will wake you up to take you back to the moment where it hasn’t unfolded yet, where you’re still in a position to make the choice which led to this. But there is no going back now, at least to the past where it hasn’t happened yet. Because it has happened. And the realization of this new reality hits you hard every passing minute.

The one word that the mind grapples with for a while after it has happened is a ‘Why’ with an over emphasized question mark following it. Why did it have to happen to me? This first ‘Why?’ more often than not leads to the answer or the decision which you then rue with another ‘why?’. Eventually, the mind gives up for the struggle is futile as it has happened and nothing can change it.